A Weak Wife


When my husband and I got married, I was surprised how easy the “wife stuff” came to me. Each day as I drove home from work, my brain was filling with ideas on what to make for dinner. On Saturday mornings, I loved waking up and surprising my sweet husband with breakfast and an adventure outside. He would constantly affirm the ways I was serving him and thank me for all I did–it felt great!

I would talk with other friends who were overwhelmed with their new role as a wife, and so I was thankful for how natural I fit with my husband. I felt like I always knew what Caleb would want in certain situations and how I could serve him best. Following through on those ideas and actually putting his needs before my own didn’t always happen, but I did always seem to know what I should do. I had the answers. However, 2013 proved to be much more difficult.

I have recently stood by my husband at two different funerals, one for his 30-year-old brother and one for his mom. I watched our normal life fly out the window as grief, anger, sadness, and confusion took over. As our daily routines changed, so did the needs of my husband. I couldn’t bring a smile to his face by planning an outdoor adventure. When he came home from a stressful day at work, walking into a clean house with dinner ready didn’t automatically cheer him up like it used to. To be honest, I have felt completely inadequate and overwhelmed. The answers don’t seem easy anymore. I am now dumbfounded with my role as a wife to a hurting man. What could I do?

Not having the answers sounds a lot more difficult, but it has actually proven to make our marriage much stronger. Instead of serving my husband with my ideas, I find myself at the feet of Jesus asking for wisdom. Instead of confidently doing what I think is best, I am constantly watching every cue my husband gives off and praying I will know how to serve him. Instead of doing the same things every week, I am learning how to adjust and change during life’s trials.

Through this time, I am learning what Paul meant when he talked about boasting in his weakness so that Christ’s power may be shown off. As a wife walking through a season of grief, I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing, but God is giving me the wisdom I need each day. My wife resume is growing as I learn to be one with a grieving man, and my time with the Lord is increasing, as I need His guidance more than ever.

2 Corinthians 12:9: But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

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Hannah Nitz is the Communications Coordinator with Authentic Intimacy, a women’s media ministry focused on intimacy in marriage and intimacy with Christ. Hannah and her husband Caleb have been married 3 years and love working with other young couples to celebrate the challenges and joys that marriage brings. Hannah loves cooking big meals from scratch, watching football, and challenging other women to grow in Christ. Follow her work on Authentic Intimacy’s Twitter and Facebook.


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